My Journey to Paint

For as long as I can remember I have loved drawing. At the age of 4 or 5 I drew a man, I remember doing it and thinking it was really good. Oh how I wish I had saved that drawing so I could see it again. My memory tells me it wasn't your run of the mill stick figure but a man with actual width beyond a pencil line. He had arms and legs and a body and head, but after that I really don't remember much about it. When I was in middle school, 8th grade I believe I copied a drawing from a dynamic figure drawing book and brought the piece to school. It was done in pencil and was actually pretty good, I still have it today. It was entered into a public show of art that students had done from all the surrounding towns. I don't remember winning anything but at least I did get to show off something I did. For years I continued with pencil drawing and eventually took private drawing lessons from a local artist.

It was not until I was in my twenties that I took up painting, at first doing folk art style on furniture and boxes and such. That was probably my inspiration for moving forward. One day I decided I was going to try oil painting, so I bought a book, some paints, brushes and other supplies and started teaching myself how to paint. My first painting was of an Egret in a body of water, it was very dark and honestly I don't remember much about it. I was going to throw it out but my sister asked if she could keep it so I let her have it. I painted in this fashion for a while, never really getting the hang of it. I loved the look of Monet's work and wanted to paint in an expressionist style but had no clue how to go about doing that. I gave up for a good long while after many attempts and failures.

I had been married, separated and moved to another town when I decided to pick it up again for something to do. Around the same time I decided to go back to college to better support myself and ended up studying graphic design. Because of my major I was taking art classes and loving it. I only took one painting class and boy do I regret that now. But I learned so much in that class that it finally put me on the road to personal success with my painting. I finally feel like I can paint a decent painting. I have so much more to learn but I am now working at it without the sheer frustration that I had before.

Once I graduated and got a job, house, bills and a life I only managed to paint occasionally but the desire was always there. I was doing good it I painted more than one painting per year. But I still felt like I was improving and not going backwards.

October of 2011 I was laid off and moved and upstate. My lack of employment has actually been a blessing in the fact that it has enabled me to paint much more than when I was employed.  I set up a corner of a room in the house as a studio and started painting. My husband challenged me at one point to try and paint faster, I have always been amazed with people who could whip out a painting in one day. He was going away for a couple of weeks and so I chose that time to try my hand at doing just that. During his time away I whipped out five paintings, which is a minor miracle for a girl who used to take a year to do one!

I don't try to keep up this pace now, but I am no longer taking as much time as I used to. I am growing in my ability and confidence with my brush. I paint almost every day for hours on end, along with the normal chores of everyday life. I think of painting as a career, a joy and something I could not imagine quitting again.

This is the beginning of my story.

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